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At the end of January 2018, my father, following a number of years of ill health departed his body. He received great care and passed peacefully with his family at his side. My dad was a gentleman and tried to stand for something good in this world. One of the beautiful things about his passing is that the illness and whatever shortcomings I had imagined, faded, and all that is left is his light. 

Even though I consider myself fairly grounded and peaceful I was still affected by this and one week after the funeral I took grief on a plane with me and journeyed to India for 5 weeks. The focus of the trip was meditating and praying, while journeying through chanting in Mayapur, dancing in Goa and yoga and Ayurvedic treatments in Kerala. Sure why not!?

The plan:

2 Days Goa – some sun and dancing – begin to unwind

1 week Mayapur at World Krtian Gathering at ISKON temple. Panchat Tatva Mayapur

Few days Calcutta

3 Days Quiet at Little Cola beach, Goa

5 Days Chapada, Goa, dancing

2 Weeks Varkala – Sun, sea, yoga, ayurvedic massage, treatments and more.

The frist few days dissappeared in now what feels like seconds! Then I found myself in Mayapur, where we had the fortune of staying right by the Ganges and watching her flow morning and night amid people bathing, washing sari’s, boats transporting goods and children playing. To the core of kirtan in Mayapur, West Bengal, home of Lord Caitanya and Lord Nityananda and the Panchat Tatva I wandered. I got to cry, ponder, meditate and dance with devotees and deities. One of the highlights of the trip, was placing red roses in Ganges for my father and what followed, where a monk sitting on the bank annointed my forehead. Although unplanned I felt instantaneously that this was the purpose for the entire trip. In that moment I felt my father's spirit in the heart of the great mother and father. I could let go a bit more. He was in a good place and I chanted and gave thanks.  Orla Ganges Roses

At Goa I enjoyed quietness and integration time on a paradise beach before travelling to the heart of psychedelic trance! Anyone who knows me, knows that I love to dance. Meditation Dance has long been a love! Through breath awarenss one's inner vision opens up. All sorts of visions come, such as the energy system opening up, clearing, DNA spiralling, connecting to the trees and the stars, flowing sacred geometry, light beings! So much fun and makes me feel alert and clear for days after too. I've got to do more of this in Ireland!

In Varkala, Kerala I sat bathed in the light of the divine. Integration and rest.  Can not describe the grace I received. It felt like pure generosity and kindness from the creator. The food was amazing, in fact it was amazing everywhere, the yoga empowering, the atmosphere clear, the treatments divine and the overall experience just wow! I believe I began to experience here, a deeper awareness that is occuring to many people throughout the planet at this time.

The journey had many aspects to it. Here is some of what I experienced. It is what it is. It is long, I warn you! May find something in this to enjoy. There's more too, that I don't mention, but sure enough is enough as my mother would say :) There is a beautiful song I love at the end.  

  • Trance dance/ meditation dance is good for me. With it, I’m more alert, in tune and happy!
  • When I am irritated with someone, be it anger or anything that sparks a conversation in the mind about another, rather than go into the story about someone or myself, instead I choose to pause, breathe, chant a mantra if it helps, and visualise white light everywhere in the present moment. This clears the trigger and lets it slide like water off a ducks back. BE HERE NOW is the way. Dancing time
  • This returns my awareness to ‘I am that I am’. Feeling negative is destructive. Thoughts are distractions! I see a thought or issue but choose not to go with it and see what happens. Instead I choose to be here in the present moment seeing more light, feeling peaceful and warm. Sometimes I just laugh at it all including myself and take 3 breaths! It all helps. It all works!
  • Being authentic is everything. In us and those we meet. When we are, we get to see who we really are, the good, bad and ugly! And it’s all okay! If we have the pattern of anger or self-loathing etc we get to see it. Then we can recognise the pattern we are operating with, own it, acknowledge it as our karmic thought patterns and maybe even understand its cause if we wish. E.g. Krishna says that the cause of anger is expectations not being met. A devotee told me this at Mayapur when I had shared that I’d had a rage (against my travelling partner!) and was meditating on why I’d reacted so intensely! The rages had started when my father got quite ill and I could see I was off and acting out some wound/ pain body. This made total sense, it was exactly when my expectations weren’t met that I got fired up like a queen something :D. 
  • The day following my rage, I had a powerful return on karma! I got stuck in an intensely challenging place for a few hours over which I pondered my thoughts, words and actions of late. I pondered over the rage I had expressed the previous night and on a few occasions, 'Quick to anger,' I heard. I realised and acknowledged that quick to anger is not the way. I turned it around and vowed that I would from this moment on be, 'Slow to anger!' I repeated it many times over the following days. The intensity of the challenge helped focus and looking back it was a turning point. Although frustrations continued at moments, it all got much easier and more enjoyable, I felt more present and stronger and I didn't turn into a crazy hyeena again!  :) 

  • This awareness of expectations also helped me greatly. I recognised the expectation had snook up without my awareness! I chose to remember and let go of expectation. A healthy practise! That which happens, regardless of how it looks is for my higher good, and so I let go of expectation and go happily with whatever arises with ease. The focus shifts from others imperfections(!) to being happy and peaceful with oneself(!) I recognised the trigger would need to occur a few more times for me to fully shift the pattern from reacting unconsciously to being conscious and remaining in peace and ease. Things improved and I think it's sorted! We'll see! All good.

Turtle NurseryMove into Beauty Consciousness if you so wish, everything is here for you. Consciousness brings awareness.

Move into softening.

Move into self-love with each breath,

Slowing down, realising,

I am comfortable here.

Bringing each part of body into being comfortable here.

Move into unconditional love.

Bodhisattva

Hare Krishna

Looking each direction and feeling unconditional love with each,

Above and below, people and places.

Two Lotus So it is.

Move into the space and white light in which thoughts come and go. 

I am here.

Hare Krishna.

The Bodhisattva

Sitting under the tree

The bodhisattva and tree alight with the in breath and light everywhere fills the surroundings with the outbreath.

Each thought is an entity, an option spinning to the right or left side of the tree. That’s all they are, options to interact with or not, to be distracted by or not. Right now I choose not.

Best office view Ive had in a while  Recognising repeating thoughts as karmic patterns of thinking . Clearing my karma so it does not need to repeat! 

When I think something regularly it means I have an attachment to the thought. Seeing the thought clearly as an entity, I instead choose to not engage with it and be in the white light. Quite refreshing! I like this! Magically a more peaceful and present reality arises, which one might expect, but in addition, what might surprise one is the peace this brings into your future nows. Other worldly. 

I had the good fortune of meeting good people and encountering good beings along the path. I heard some wise words.

In Mayapur I danced watching Lord Caitanya and the PanchatTattva, slept next the Ganges every night and watched an older man sing to Krishna and Radharani. I saw and felt the flow of divine generosity. In Goa I met Krishna, Shiva, Parvati, Lakshmi, Vishnu and Kali. I came close to Parvati, Lakshmi and Kali who brought me on an adventure! Shiva appeared when I needed him and then I realised he is everywhere. In Varkala I learned more about Hanuman, who saves his devotees from the sea and inspires their friends. I experienced the wonderful mysterious limitless sun and the bodhisattva again. Hare Krishna! One night in Varklala I heard the inner self say, tomorrow I will wake up a new woman. The next morning I awoke and heard, ‘Today I am a new woman.’ And so it was and so it is!

The ego seeks to separate always… It can wreck havoc with a good relationship. To make the most of the moment we must continually bring ourselves back to oneness with the present moment and the other. Travelling with an ex-boyfriend is a really good practise for this! That's the price to really get on well and it's worth every penny!

My desire to recognise patterns of thought as attachments (i.e. thinking the same thought regularly!) and surrender this attachment was strong and encouraged deeper awareness throughout the trip.  SeaHorse View Sea

Indeed if I didn’t have these tools the trip could have been a serious challenge! But it wasn’t! Even though there were some tears and frustrations, I was after all dealing with grief and inner journeying, it was 1012%+ a truly Divine experience.

I wished to let go of any thoughts of my ex, and of my attachment to these thoughts.

I wished to surrender and let go so that if we ever did meet again or indeed I meet anyone again, I would no longer be experiencing reality through a pattern of karmic thoughts, but as a true and clear moment of being.  

Through this all I have learned to respect mirror, respect each and everyone I think of and meet, and respect myself. Everyone and everything has a soul and is to be respected.

A young guy from the Himalayas who worked a food stall in Goa wore a tee-shirt with Respect Mirror written on the back of it. My eyes were drawn to these words and I found myself meditating upon them for a few days.

Ganges cremationI realised that everyone was my mirror and especially whomever I was dealing with in any particular moment and that I would consciously respect them fully from now on. First I looked at my travelling partner, and applied it to him; I thought I respected everyone but realised with this, that I did not always respect him, nor at times, his words, ideas and actions! I think most people with a travelling companion or partner/ ex partner can relate to this!?

It is funny to say so now. But with this shift I felt so much better and more present. Judgement subsided and I could hold him in my vision and focus upon the present moment for longer. I softened. I understood and could feel that as a result, my physiology, mind and emotions were more stable and peaceful. Result! It was good for both of us, and great for my relationship with all.

I met an incredible presence of a being in Goa. She told she followed the path of Karma Yoga. I go forth with this feeling in my heart. She said, 'Everything I do, say and think is good, and therefore the opposite is also good!' Worth a ponder or two for sure! I’m still pondering!

Be with someone with a good heart and your world will transform.

I respect all I meet.  OmNamahShivaya

I respect mirror.

I am happy with myself and all I do, think and say. Amen.

I surrender all

Money, home, love, mission, purpose et al.

Thank you.

Be clear and see what arises.

Be here now is the motto.

I am in the field of unconditional love.

I recognise I am not the pain, heartbreak or sadness, I am the I am.

I am that I am.

Sometimes it’s important and right to fight.

I separates; No I unifies one with the present moment. 

As Sri RamaKrishna says, 'The highest ideal is eternal and entire self-abnegation, where there is no ‘I’, but all is ‘Thou.’'

Give yourself to the present moment because the present moment will give everything to you.

Accept presence

Be the present moment

We are here to die, set yourself up for a good departure!

Attachment takes us out of the now

Clear clear clear and be here now!

Lonely is just when we forget to feel god’s presence…

Every day u wake up is a new life

Every day you are a new person.

Give people options and you will live in abundance

I let go of judgment of others.

I let go of self-judgement too! Feels good! And life more fun! Sunset Varkala

We have the option to allow the present moment to be and act through us. The pain is just when we have a pattern that is out of harmony with what is being called for in the present moment.

I speak , sing and breathe with light in the face especially the nose and chin. Grin!

We are connected, One with sun.

Remember this connection always for strength greater than any ego!

The sun offers limitless strength and presence.

If I saw everything that happens and occurrs as coming from the sun, I’d be in a continuous place of appreciation for all!

Be free of thought so you are open to experiencing the limitless light flowing here.

The terrorists are everywhere but they are internal. They can only find you if you are negative in action, word or thought. Thinking negatively/ destructively will lose you the opportunity to be and bask in this light. Thinking anything slows one down and is a distraction. Sometimes I just acknowledge a thought as a little football size entity that is hovering to my right. I see it, don't engage and focus on the light which is everywhere and permeates all, and smile.

Being humble is a beautiful feeling and something worth practicing. quote be more humble than a blade of grass more tolerant than a tree always offering respect chaitanya mahaprabhu 61 80 70

There is a game going on. Beliefs create vibration and the reality follows.

Here, I am comfortable with myself.

Life is like a movie and everyone playing a role. What is your role? There are signs of your role, just look. What role would you like to play? Why? 

Write your movie, decide what character feels best to you in this movie. Change the story if you wish, and ask God to direct your movie through you! May we always remember that we are here to serve. There also doesn't need to be any story any longer if you rather. You get to decide.

To stay and be on this paradise earth we must realize that this is God’s planet. God is here emanating in everything. Can I see him/ her!? Yes I can! This awareness opens the experience of Paradise Earth. It is a wonderful worthy journey. The heart is good, and you will meet others with good hearts too, you could say god is alive in the hearts of all, or the hearts of all are aware of the divine in all. And this is where we are, and so it is. 

All in all I had an amazing trip. I bow in gratitude and service to the great creator, mother India and even my wonderful travelling companion! I am still processing my father's departure and that comes at moments and is blessed. I am peaceful with what is and wish him and all my family love and oneness. I especially wish him with his next journey lots of blessings. I am judging myself less and living each day at a time, loving nature and spending more time outdoors. I am not chasing connection but enjoying it so much when it arises. I mostly am in the now and still enjoying the inner beauty and light that was stimulated over these 5 weeks. I had a little anxiety before I left for this trip, but did it anyway. I am so glad. If you have a callling for a journey, may you go and may it serve you well. I am considering offering a retreat in Varkala India in the next year, so if this resonates for you, please get in contact. May everyone who wishes, get to enjoy long holidays!  <3 

Hare Krishna!

I had the beautiful pleasure of hearing and meeting the sweetly generous of heart and spirit Ilan Chester at Mayapur. My heart softened and expanded in love as I listened to his pure, gentle and generous kirtan. I knew nothing of him but his sweet sound and when days later I saw him walking the campus I jumped at the opportunity to say hi and find out something about this being! Turns out (not surprisingly!) he is a well recognised world artist. Above is Track 1 from his album Symphony of the Soul. Days later when I put it on for the first time while unable to seep in Calcutta, I wept. The whole album is a beautiful listen, may you too enjoy. <3 

Finally, finally, following this trip and the return to Ireland I have one thing to say and that is, 'Thank you.' Thank you to the great creator, thank you to India, thank you to Eiru, thank you family, thank you Dad, thank you light, thank you dear travelling companoin, thank you peace, grace and thank you love.

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Sunday, 01 November 2015 23:22

Energy update November 2015

Treading the mystery

Have you been feeling sensitive? Gentle? The calling of the heart? Tears? Letting go?

The feeling for many at the beginning of the month is that they are deep in the mystery. Being ok with not knowing what's going to happen can be a saviour here. Sometimes we can see what is coming towards us and sometimes not. The desire to control and know will only frustrate. Give it up and instead focus fully on the now.What if you choose to be be cool with now this moment and TRUST that all is lining up? Your dominant energy is going to greatly affect your outlook and experiences. For this reason- choosing to be cool or even happy with everything as is can elevate you to a peaceful and happy place. Being happy with everything as is - is more of a feeling than a mental exercise. Feel the feeling and then embrace each part of your life with this feeling. For example, money, accept it, feel happy and spin happiness into how you feel about money. The mind will have to give up arguing, but let's face it the mind could argue all day long and it does no good. If you like, experiment with this and see how this serves you. Include happiness/ being cool with /accepting: family - friends - society- personal development - fitness - health - career - home - environment - and anything else that arises.

Remember, 

  • We've been here before and got through ok so we'll get through this time too!
  • I am happy with everything as is

 

Awareness that I have a choice in how I manage this makes a difference. Knowing that the mystery is part of the human experience helps us let go and trust. Challenges will come and go but the more peaceful you feel, the more you trust that things will work out and visa versa. If you haven't bee feeling this, perhaps you've been not been listening within to your inner guidance? Meditation, exercise and being in nature all support this stillness that enables us to feel the force greater than the little mind that lovingly guides each one of us. A few months ago I had a vision of wave of energy moving through the earth. Teh save arose in September and will peak around November 23rd. There could be a plus or minus of 5 days as you integrate this expansion.

Many of us are feeling growing pains as the parts of us that aren't in alignment with the higher nature rise in our awareness. It can feel like the child within can't cope. This is ok and natural at this time. Good news is that this is part of the awakening prcoress and that we can make great progress at this time!

What is going on for you? Has any fear arisen?

  • Can you put it into words?
  • Can you accept it?
  • Can you add to that, 'I am getting better at....' - go on be kind!
  • Can you turn it around? In words, then visualization, and then action?
    • 'I'm realising I'm quite good at...' - play with this it will feel good and open the mind to new neural pathways, association and reality.
    • Write it out and read it to yourself daily to remind yourself of the journey and that all is working out nicely.
    • Also, write a paragraph on a card of an evolved version of yourself, a step ahead from where you are now, and put it in your wallet. Read daily. This is what feels good to you. Include on it 'I am happy with everything as is.' What you are saying here is that you are happy with things as are and that you are heading in a feel good direction. Simple really.

This wave of energy implies a wonderful opportunity for transformation and greater harmony. Some opportunity will arise in the next few weeks- if it feels great - go for it!

 

13 breaths to BREATHING PURPOSEFULLY

Everyone knows or has heard of the importance of breathing- but to breath consciously from beginning to end 13 breaths in a row takes you to a whole new level of ease. In addition if you are eager, focus upon a feeling (you'd like to experience more of) as you breathe.

If you require help as to which feeling to focus upon, visualize the greater version of you who is dealing successfully with the situation you are in. Ask yourself, what soul trait do I have in this vision? If that is too much just observe yourself taking 13 breaths in a row- it's still enough and amazing!

Examples of soul traits include:

  • Loving kindness
  • Compassion
  • Courage
  • Peace
  • Confident
  • Forgiveness
  • Trust/ Faith
  • feeling supported
  • Happy
  • Inspired
  • Funny
  •  (add in your own)

Be in nature. A 2 hour walk, 5 minutes in the garden or 13 breaths when you park the car can be enough. You may notice a big difference and even be surprised at how easy it can be. You are ready. You deserve to be well and enjoy this peak of light on the 23rd.

Calling out for help & allowing others in!

And it’s so healthy to call out for help too.

‘Vulnerability is the glue that holds relationships together.’ Brene Brown

Sometimes we spend our time being strong and don’t allow our vulnerabilities to show. However, it’s often in the moments where we call out and share our vulnerability that our connection with others deepens and something beautiful arises. Don’t miss out on sharing with a few people how you are feeling/ what you are experiencing.

 Allow yourself be vulnerbale and share how you feel or what you are thinking with someone you love and trust. 

If something is proving challenging, fill the situation in your mind with light, keep doing this. Change will occur.

Summary:

  • Be in nature.
  • Use the 13 breaths -  observe 13 breaths to come back into the now.
  • Share with a friend or friends how you are feeling, and listen to them too. Let the barriers down. Share.
  • Big opportunity is coming around the 23rd!  
  • This is a special time. Enjoy! Take risks and have fun!

 

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