At the end of January 2018, my father, following a number of years of ill health departed his body. He received great care and passed peacefully with his family at his side. My dad was a gentleman and tried to stand for something good in this world. One of the beautiful things about his passing is that the illness and whatever shortcomings I had imagined, faded, and all that was left was his light.
Even though I consider myself fairly grounded and peaceful I was still affected by this and one week after the funeral I took my grief on a plane with me and journeyed to India for 5 weeks. The focus of the trip was meditating and praying, while journeying through chanting in Mayapur, dancing in Goa and yoga and Ayurvedic treatments in Kerala.
2 Days Goa – some sun and dancing – begin to unwind
1 week Mayapur at World Krtian Gathering at ISKON temple.
Few days Calcutta
3 Days Quiet at Little Cola beach, Goa
5 Days Chapada, Goa, dancing
2 Weeks Varkala – Sun, sea, yoga, ayurvedic massage, treatments and more.
In Mayapur, I had the fortune of staying right by the Ganges and watching her flow morning and night amid people bathing, washing sari’s and children playing. To the core of kirtan at the world gathering kirtan mela in Mayapur, West Bengal, home of Lord Caitanya and Lord Nityananda and the Panchat Tatva I wandered. I got to cry, ponder, meditate and dance with devotees and deities. One of the highlights of the trip, was placing red roses in Ganges for my father and what followed where a monk sitting on the bank annointed my forehead. Although unplanned I felt this moment significant and instantaneously that it was the purpose for the entire trip. In that moment I felt my father's spirit in the heart of the great mother and father. I could let go a bit more somehow. He was in a good place and I prayed and gave thanks for his journey.
At Goa I enjoyed the quietness and integration and then travelled to the heart of psychedelic trance. Anyone who knows me, knows that I love to dance. Meditation Dance has long been a love of mine for about 10 years where I go into trance through dance and breath work and see what's happening! It may be the energy system opening up, clearing, DNA, connecting to the trees and cosmos, flowing sacred geometry, light beings or whatever shows up! So much fun and makes me feel so alert and clear for days after too. I've got to do more of this in Ireland!
In Varkala, Kerala I sat bathed in the light of the divine. Integration and rest. Can not describe the grace I received. It felt like pure generosity and kindness from the creator. The food was amazing, in fact it was amazing everywhere I went in India, the yoga empowering, the atmosphere clear, the treatments divine and the overall experience just wow! I believe K and I began to experience the event here, the current shift in consicosuens that is occuring with lightworkers throughout the planet at this time.
The journey had many aspects to it. Here is some of what I experienced. It is what it is. It is long, I warn you! May find something in this that you enjoy. There's more too, that I don't mention, but sure enough is enough as my mother would say :) There is a beautiful song I love at the end.
- Trance dance/ meditation dance is good for me. With it, I’m more alert, in tune and happy!
- When I am irritated with someone, be it anger or anything that sparks a conversation in the mind about another, rather than go into the story about someone or myself, instead I choose to pause, breathe, chant a mantra if it helps, and visualise light everywhere in the present moment. This clears the trigger and lets it slide like water off a ducks back. BE HERE NOW is the way.
- This returns my awareness to ‘I am that I am’. Being happy with I am. Feeling negative is destructive. All thoughts are distractions! I see a thought or issue but choose not to go with it and see what happens. Instead I choose to be here in the present moment seeing more light, feeling peaceful and warm. Sometimes I just laugh at it all including myself and take 3 breaths of light! It all helps. It all works!
- Being authentic is everything. In us and those we meet. When we are, we get to see who we really are, the good, bad and ugly! And it’s all okay! If we have the pattern of anger or self-loathing etc we get to see it. Then we can recognise the pattern we are operating with, own it, acknowledge it as our karmic thought patterns and maybe even understand its cause if we wish. E.g. Krishna says that the cause of anger is expectations not being met. A devotee told me this at Mayapur when I had shared that I’d had a rage (against my travelling partner!) and was meditating on why I’d reacted so intensely! The rages had started when my father got quite ill and I could see I was off and acting out some wound/ pain body. This made total sense, it was exactly when my expectations weren’t met that I got fired up like a queen something :D.
The day following my rage, I had a powerful return on karma! I got stuck in an intensely challenging place for 2 hours over which I pondered my thoughts, words and actions of late. I pondered over the rage I had expressed the previous night and on a few other occasions, ' Quick to anger,' I heard. I realised and acknowledged that quick to anger is not the way. I turned it around and vowed that I would from these moment on be, ' slow to anger!' I repeated it many times over the following days. The intensity of the challenge helped focus and looking back it was a turning point. Although frustrations continued at moments, slow to anger slowed down my reactions greatly so I didn't turn into a crazy hyeena! :)
- This awareness of expectations also helped me greatly. I recognised the expectation had snook up without my awareness! I chose to remember and let go of expectation. A healthy practise! That which happens, regardless of how it looks is for our higher good, and so I let go of expectation and go happily with whatever arises with ease. The focus shifts from others imperfections(!) to being happy and peaceful with oneself(!) I recognised the trigger would need to occur a few more times for me to fully shift the pattern from reacting unconsciously to being conscious and remaining in peace and ease. Things improved and I think it's sorted for now! We'll see! All good.
Move into Beauty Consciousness if you so wish, everything is here for you. Consciousness brings awareness.
Move into softening.
Move into self-love with each breath,
Slowing down, realising,
I am comfortable here.
Bringing each part of body into being comfortable here.
Move into unconditional love.
Looking each direction and feeling unconditional love with each,
Above and below, people and places.
So it is.
Move into the space and white light in which thoughts come and go.
I am here.
Sitting under the tree
The bodhisattva and tree alight with the in breath and light everywhere fills the surroundings with the outbreath.
Each thought is an entity, an option spinning to the right or left side of the tree. That’s all they are, options to interact with or not, to be distracted by or not. Right now I choose not.
Recognising repeating thoughts as karmic patterns of thinking . Clearing my karma so it does not need to repeat!
When I think something regularly it means I have an attachment to the thought. Seeing the thought clearly as an entity, I instead choose to ignore it and be in the white light. Quite refreshing! I like this! Magically a more peaceful and present reality arises, which one might expect, but in addition, what might surprise one is the peace this brings into my future nows. Other worldly.
I had the good fortune of meeting good people and encountering good deities along the path. I heard some wise words.
In Mayapur I danced with Lord Caitanya and the PanchatTattva, , I slept next the Ganges every night and I watched an older man sing to Krishna and Radharani. I saw and felt the flow of divine generosity. In Goa I met Krishna, Shiva, Paravati, Lakshmi, Vishnu and Kali. Parasvati and Lakshmi walked with me and brought me on an adventure. Shiva appeared when I needed him and then I realised he is everywhere. In Varkala I learned more about Hanuman, who saves his devotees from the sea, and inspires their friends, the wonderful mysterious limitless sun and the bodhisattva again. Hare Krishna! One night in Varklala I heard the inner self say, tomorrow I will wake up a new woman. The next morning I awoke and heard, ‘Today I am a new woman.’ And so it was and so it is!
The ego seeks to separate always… It can wreck havoc with a good relationship. To make the most of the moment we must continually bring ourselves back to oneness with the present moment and the other. Travelling with an ex-boyfriend is a really good practise for this! That's the price to really get on well and it's worth every penny!
My desire to recognise patterns of thought as attachments (i.e. thinking the same thought regularly!) and surrender this attachment was strong and encouraged deeper awareness throughout the trip.
Indeed if I didn’t have these tools the trip couldn’t been a nightmare! But it wasn’t! Even through there were some tears and frustrations, I was after all dealing with grief and inner journeying, it was 1000%+ a truly Divine experience.
I wished to let go of any thoughts of my ex, and of my attachment to these thoughts.
I wished to surrender and let go so that if we ever did meet again or indeed I meet anyone again, I would no longer be experiencing reality through a pattern of karmic thoughts, but as a true and clear moment of being.
Through this all I have learned to respect mirror, respect each and everyone I think of and meet, and respect myself. Everyone and everything has a soul and needs to be respected.
A young guy from the Himalayas who worked a food stall in Goa wore a tee-shirt with Respect Mirror written on the back of it. My eyes were drawn to these words and I found myself meditating upon them for a few days.
I decided that everyone was my mirror and especially whomever I was dealing with in any particular moment and that I would consciously respect them fully from now on. First I looked at my travelling partner, my ex-boyfriend and applied it to him; I thought I respected everyone but realised with this, that I did not always respect him, nor at times, his words, ideas and actions! I think most people with a travelling companion or partner/ ex partner can relate to this!?
It is funny to say so now. But with this shift I felt so much better and more present. Judgement subsided and I could hold him in my vision and focus upon him for longer. As I focused upon him I softened. I understood and could feel that as a result, my physiology, mind and emotions were more stable and peaceful. Result! It was good for both of us, and great for my relationship with all.
I met an incredible presence of a being in Goa. She told she followed the path of Karma Yoga. I go forth with this feeling in my heart. She said, 'Everything I do, say and think is good, and therefore the opposite is also good!' Worth a ponder or two for sure! I’m still pondering!
Be with someone with a good heart and your world will transform.
I respect all I meet.
I respect mirror.
I am happy with myself and all I do, think and say. Amen.
I surrender all
Money, home, love, mission, purpose et al.
Let me stay clear and see what arises.
Be here now is my motto.
I am in the field of unconditional love.
I recognise I am not the pain, heartbreak or sadness, I am the I am.
I am that I am.
Sometimes it’s important and right to fight.
I separates; No I unifies one with the present moment.
As Sri RamaKrishna says, 'The highest ideal is eternal and entire self-abnegation, where there is no ‘I’, but all is ‘Thou.’'
Give yourself to the present moment because the present moment will give everything to you.
Be the present moment
We are here to die
Attachment takes us out of the now
Clear clear clear and be here now!
Lonely is just when we forget to feel god’s presence…
Every day u wake up is a new life
Every day you are a new person.
Give people options and you will live in abundance
I let go of judgment of others.
I let go of self-judgement too! Feels good! And life more fun!
We have the option to simply allow the present moment to be and act through us. The pain is just when we have a pattern that is out of harmony with what is being called for in the present moment.
I speak , sing and breathe with light in the face especially the nose and chin. Grin!
We are connected to the sun.
Remember this connection always for strength greater than any ego!
The sun offers limitless strength and presence.
If you saw everything that happens and occurrs as coming from the sun, you’d be in a continuous place of appreciation for all!
Be free of thought so you are open to experiencing the limitless light flowing here.
The terrorists are everywhere but they are internal. They can only find you if you are negative in action, word or thought. Thinking negatively/ destructively will lose you the opportunity to be and bask in this light. Thinking anything slows one down and is a distraction. Sometimes I just acknowledge a thought as a little football size entity that is hovering to my right. I see it, ignore it and focus on the light which is everywhere and permeates all, and smile.
Being humble is a beautiful feeling and something worth practicing.
Like the bodhisattva, I visualized it and then experienced it, the questions is now, what would you like to visualize and experience?
There is a game going on. Beliefs create vibration and the reality follows.
Here I am comfortable with myself.
Life is like a movie and everyone playing a role. What is your role? There are signs of your role, just look. What role would you like to play? Why?
Write your movie, decide what character feels best to you in this movie. Change the story if you wish, and always remember God and that we are here to serve. There also doesn't need to be any story any longer. You get to decide.
To stay and be on this paradise earth we must realize that this is God’s planet. God is here emanating in everything. Can I see him/ her!? Yes I can! This awareness opens the experience of Paradise Earth. It is a wonderful journey. The heart is good, and you will meet others with good hearts too, you could say god is alive in the hearts of all, or the hearts of all are aware of the divine in all. And this is where we are, and so it is.
All in all I had an amazing trip. I bow in gratitude and service to the great creator, mother India and even my wonderful travelling companion! I am still processing my father's departure and that comes at moments and is blessed. I am peaceful with what is and wish him and all my family love and oneness. I expecially wish him with his next journey lots of blessings. I am judging myself less and living each day at a time, loving nature and spending more time outdoors. I am not chasing connection but enjoying it so much when it arises. I feel in the now and am still enjoying the inner beauty and light that was stimulated over these 5 weeks. I had a little anxiety before I left for this trip, but did it anyway. I am so glad I went. If you have a callling for a journey, may you go and may it serve you well. I am considering offering a retreat in Varkala India in the next year, so if this resonates for you, please get in contact. May everyone who wishes, get to enjoy long holidays! <3
I had the beautiful pleasure of hearing and meeting the sweetly generous of heart and spirit Ilan Chester at Mayapur. My heart softened and expanded in love as I listened to his pure, gentle and generous kirtan. I knew nothing of him and when days later I saw him walking the campus I pounced to say hi and find something out about this being! Turns out (not surprisingly!) he is a well recognised world artist. Above is Track 1 from his album Symphony of the Soul. Days later when I put it for the first time while unable to seep in Calcutta, I wept. The whole album is a beautiful listen, may you too enjoy. <3
Am here in lovely London, and yes really and honestly it is lovely here!
After a great experience of a 30 hour kirtan in Birmingham (they call it a 24 hour kirtan but I left to get the train after 30 hours so who knows how long it actually went on for!? A big thank you to everyone who helped organised a great festival and gave so freely. Can you believe that was not 1 penny charged to attend this gathering though donations were gratefully received! Still, that makes it pretty inviting for many, and many there were with over 1600 registered and I believe many donations were also received!
What it involved:
30 hours of continuous kirtan, that is singing of the Maha mantra to many different melodies in a call and response manner. The Maha mantra is considered the great mantra, it contains the energy of all mantras within it. Various singers from around the world and UK turned up to lead 30 minute to 2 hour sessions with a large group of wonderful musicians. Over two days people sang and danced and all of us were fed four lovely meals each day too!
I love singing this mantra. It connects one deep into the heart space where a sweet feeling of love arises and permeates my mind and being.
Through kirtan there is a call and response where a 'leader' sings the Maha mantra and everyone responds and sings the mantra with the same melody.
It's a real journey of emotion and depth. While I sing, I find major things moving through my awareness especially my family, friends, past and even future experiences.
People were advised to sleep in a hotel but I decided to brave it and sleep at the hall! I lay down with a blanket and somehow managed to sleep quite comfortably right beside the kirtan players. At this stage the number had gone from about 900 in the busiest moment to 20! I awoke early and sat up immediately and very happily joined back in!
Through the 2nd day I entered deeper into the present moment, the presence of love and the presence and love of the creator.
I am ever grateful for this experience. If you'd like to give it a go, look for a kirtan group near where you live. In Dublin and London there is kirtan weekly at the Hare Krishna Temples as well as in other places.
Personally I love (as you can probably tell!) and highly recommend it. Allow the sound to move through your heart! Give it a try if you feel the calling!
The Maha Mantra:
'Haribol' means chant and be happy as this is what chanting is said to do for you- make you feel happier! A pretty nice outcome!
Meanwhile this week, I am in London checking out opportunities, spending time with my sister and offering one to one healing and soul's goals sessions.
Back to Ireland next Monday evening, with healing sessions taking place Tuesday and Friday at the Harvest Moon Centre, Dublin 2
Irish number: 00 353 872320159
English number: 00 44 7435816809
I welcome you to get in contact whereever you are as in addition to being in Londond nad Dublin am also working with other locations via skype!
Wishing you peace and happiness,
Thank you and Haribol!
I recently started on another cleanse. as this stage they are like second nature and not being on a cleanse has come more of a novelty than being on a cleanse! I love feeling well and it just becomes a natural happy way of life after a while. But I also enjoy throwing it all up in the air every now and then and seeing how things settle. Regularly at least twice a year I get the calling and so here I am again: Entering cleanse time!
My normal cleanse routine is written about a fair bit on this website. It includes taking the herbs as recommended by Dr Hulda Clark; wormwood, cloves and walnut hull tincture and two amino acids which support energy, rest and rejuvenation. These are taken for 4 -6 weeks in association with an alternative diet. The diet requires no sugar, dairy, wheat, white potatoes, white rice, yeast, mushrooms, fruit and honey.
This time I'm designing a cleanse to suit my needs. The first question I asked myself yesterday was,
Why am I doing/committing to this cleanse?
For everyone the answer is different and there is no right or wrong, but I believe the answer is essential for finding one's motivation and to help enjoy the experience as much as possible.
I am doing this cleanse as I feel these practices will bring out the best in me and support a leap in awareness and reality that I feel is being offered to everyone this month. Do I have to give up sugar to do this? I hear myself ask. No I don't have to, but it will help take me to the next level in a good way - I can just feel it, so let's give it a go!
Here is what I feel excited and guided to do. Daily I will:
- Be/ Walk/ rum/ play in nature for 1 hours
- Practice Jala Neti http://orlaphelan.com/cleanse/netti-pot
- Practice 30 minutes of yoga
- Eliminate all processed sugar from diet (honey and fruit are allowable)
- Eliminate diary/ wheat/ minimize gluten
- Take the 3 in 1 ClarkFx as old on this website Click here to purchase/ for more info
That's it for now!
Mid month feedback:
So today is the 13th and here is a bit of feedback for you. Giving up sugar has been great, it's not been that difficult (due to honey and fruit) and today I feel very well. Any discipline may take a few days or weeks to adapt to. I am loving the hour in nature each day. My center feels settled and I can return to feel this with greater ease. My mind feels sharper, energy level higher, emotional state today is excellent- peaceful, happy and content. I've been enjoying my special super tonic every morning- will blog on that next. Cut down on quantity of food (naturally) and joyful that there are another few weeks to see what happens. Maybe i'll even finish the project I'm working on!?
It's a big cleanse month for many, so good luck to all. May there be clarity as to why and may you be well guided and enjoy the journey and results. Much love, Orla
Treading the mystery
Have you been feeling sensitive? Gentle? The calling of the heart? Tears? Letting go?
The feeling for many at the beginning of the month is that they are deep in the mystery. Being ok with not knowing what's going to happen can be a saviour here. Sometimes we can see what is coming towards us and sometimes not. The desire to control and know will only frustrate. Give it up and instead focus fully on the now.What if you choose to be be cool with now this moment and TRUST that all is lining up? Your dominant energy is going to greatly affect your outlook and experiences. For this reason- choosing to be cool or even happy with everything as is can elevate you to a peaceful and happy place. Being happy with everything as is - is more of a feeling than a mental exercise. Feel the feeling and then embrace each part of your life with this feeling. For example, money, accept it, feel happy and spin happiness into how you feel about money. The mind will have to give up arguing, but let's face it the mind could argue all day long and it does no good. If you like, experiment with this and see how this serves you. Include happiness/ being cool with /accepting: family - friends - society- personal development - fitness - health - career - home - environment - and anything else that arises.
- We've been here before and got through ok so we'll get through this time too!
- I am happy with everything as is
Awareness that I have a choice in how I manage this makes a difference. Knowing that the mystery is part of the human experience helps us let go and trust. Challenges will come and go but the more peaceful you feel, the more you trust that things will work out and visa versa. If you haven't bee feeling this, perhaps you've been not been listening within to your inner guidance? Meditation, exercise and being in nature all support this stillness that enables us to feel the force greater than the little mind that lovingly guides each one of us. A few months ago I had a vision of wave of energy moving through the earth. Teh save arose in September and will peak around November 23rd. There could be a plus or minus of 5 days as you integrate this expansion.
Many of us are feeling growing pains as the parts of us that aren't in alignment with the higher nature rise in our awareness. It can feel like the child within can't cope. This is ok and natural at this time. Good news is that this is part of the awakening prcoress and that we can make great progress at this time!
What is going on for you? Has any fear arisen?
- Can you put it into words?
- Can you accept it?
- Can you add to that, 'I am getting better at....' - go on be kind!
- Can you turn it around? In words, then visualization, and then action?
- 'I'm realising I'm quite good at...' - play with this it will feel good and open the mind to new neural pathways, association and reality.
- Write it out and read it to yourself daily to remind yourself of the journey and that all is working out nicely.
- Also, write a paragraph on a card of an evolved version of yourself, a step ahead from where you are now, and put it in your wallet. Read daily. This is what feels good to you. Include on it 'I am happy with everything as is.' What you are saying here is that you are happy with things as are and that you are heading in a feel good direction. Simple really.
This wave of energy implies a wonderful opportunity for transformation and greater harmony. Some opportunity will arise in the next few weeks- if it feels great - go for it!
13 breaths to BREATHING PURPOSEFULLY
Everyone knows or has heard of the importance of breathing- but to breath consciously from beginning to end 13 breaths in a row takes you to a whole new level of ease. In addition if you are eager, focus upon a feeling (you'd like to experience more of) as you breathe.
If you require help as to which feeling to focus upon, visualize the greater version of you who is dealing successfully with the situation you are in. Ask yourself, what soul trait do I have in this vision? If that is too much just observe yourself taking 13 breaths in a row- it's still enough and amazing!
Examples of soul traits include:
- Loving kindness
- Trust/ Faith
- feeling supported
- (add in your own)
Be in nature. A 2 hour walk, 5 minutes in the garden or 13 breaths when you park the car can be enough. You may notice a big difference and even be surprised at how easy it can be. You are ready. You deserve to be well and enjoy this peak of light on the 23rd.
Calling out for help & allowing others in!
And it’s so healthy to call out for help too.
‘Vulnerability is the glue that holds relationships together.’ Brene Brown
Sometimes we spend our time being strong and don’t allow our vulnerabilities to show. However, it’s often in the moments where we call out and share our vulnerability that our connection with others deepens and something beautiful arises. Don’t miss out on sharing with a few people how you are feeling/ what you are experiencing.
Allow yourself be vulnerbale and share how you feel or what you are thinking with someone you love and trust.
If something is proving challenging, fill the situation in your mind with light, keep doing this. Change will occur.
- Be in nature.
- Use the 13 breaths - observe 13 breaths to come back into the now.
- Share with a friend or friends how you are feeling, and listen to them too. Let the barriers down. Share.
- Big opportunity is coming around the 23rd!
- This is a special time. Enjoy! Take risks and have fun!
18th May 2015:
10 days ago I headed off on a mini retreat, a living retreat really. Feeling deeply thankful and grounded right now. Spent the past 10 days in the UK and am so grateful for the fullness of these experiences. Started with a wonderful plane ride from Dublin to a 24 hour kirtan in Brimingham with about 300- 500 people singing, chanting, dancing and meditating. Just amazing, there are no words for the love which surges through in these experiences. At one stage on the Saturday night while dancing and signing, I felt two portals in my brain open and this energy shoot through into other parts of my mind! The mana of ecstatic bliss! In a time when the world needs love and gentleness and we blossom so beautifully in such a true place of love and light, these gatherings whether large or small are priceless and dear to this being. My heart is overflowing with gratitude to those who create these events, and to those I meet along the way, such beloved souls that there is nothing but gratitude, deep love, appreciation and something else I do not have the words to express. So sweet. Thank youto the special people I met and connected with.
Thissmile emoticThiThis incredible journey then continued to London where I stayed with my amazing sister whose kindness and generosity is beautifully limitless. Following a day of progress and good work, took the train to Brighton where I spent 4 days and 3 nights catching up with my dear friend Chantelle from New Zealand, while working during the day and chatting and catching up morning and night. Such friendships are the gifts that keep on giving. Complete open conversation and connection with another is such a joyous experience, its not about agreeing with each other, but rather about being clear and open and coming from love regardless of what is being said. Such beautiful experiences and conversations can occur this way.
Back in London I got to catch up with some clients who have evolved so gloriously over the past few years and especially over the past 6 months that I feel like putting them on television so others can gain from their experiences and brilliance! Of course it's not always easy when you are evolving, but having some guidance, practices and awareness really helps! Such grand appreciation dear life.
A lovely weekend full of ease, productivity and peace followed with my sister and nephew! What a blessed 10 day experience mama Earth. I feel so very subtly transformed! Thank you for taking such care of I as I journey, and I haven't included so many other things such as gifted special encounters with lovely people and expanding awareness.
This morning I had a dream before I awoke where I was 2 years old. I had similar clarity to now but didn't understand other people or how the world worked. Why weren't people always kind!? Why didn't they tell the truth, why did they 'hurt'!? I recalled and re-experienced an event that occurred at that age that my conscious mind had forgotten. I felt a hurt from that event in the dream that when I awoke I could still feel very subtly in my adult body. Since this morning I've been transforming it into light and love & am feeling very well! I am so grateful for the unexpected gifts of awareness and abundance that continue to unfold. I'm offering this moment to energetically and physically thank and acknowledge life and the wonderful kind souls who helped make this trip something truly special. I will share this joy. Peace and love brothers and sisters, love you, X
Can you locate pain or discomfort anywhere on your body? Can you focus on it with light and love like a magnifying glass focusing sunlight?
Remember to treat others with honesty, integrity and loving kindness, even if they are just two years old. There may be much more going on in people than we often realise :)
Anything you are thankful for right now? Would love you to write us a note below and share :)